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gosh wordpress… ERK.. XD

maybe going to the cinema to watch Tangled isnt such a good idea for me..
im terribly afraid that i couldnt refrain myself from leaving my seat and start to dance and sing a long with the wonderfully written music… XD

its a month from today onwards..im excited honestly..

-Tangled was awesome.
-storyline was whao-whao-whao.
-Pascal was such an adorable chameleon, makes me wanna have a chameleon as a pet now. XD
-ah! a must-watch movie.

-i can still feel it trying to hold me back. trying to hinder me.
-i go, only to meet You. the rest doesnt matter. i just gotto keep repeating and reminding myself.
-but regardless of my reluctance and negative thoughts, its always a rewarding trip.
-it is a battle of the mind i guess. and i wanna win it.

i dont regret leaving…
i only regret not having anymore time with u guys..

i seriously miss u guys…

was talking to a friend who is living and studying in kl..
he told me to prepare lots of $$$ coz its all about entertainment in kl, parties,fun,food,clothes,shopping,etc..
i told him, fat hope man…
im not a fan of entertainment stuffs,  not even when i was in Singapore…

come to think of it…
i never really enjoyed myself in Sg…
all i wanted to do was to focus on my studies and excel..
to me, those was a waste of time and money..not to mention the conversion..

我终于知道我最大的恐惧是什么了…
是…  失败…
一个出乎我人生中预料及计划的事情…

just got back from kl with my parents..

all set..im leaving on the 2nd of Jan for ACCA…

i just cant wait to move on and walk out of all these…

a new and fresh beginning…

good friends…

encourage you when you feel down…

never look down on you or judge you…

always try to set aside time for you..

makes you wanna go back to the Word of God..

reminds you of God during the times when you feel abandoned..

forgives unconditionally…

never give up on you..

rarer than any gems and diamonds that can be found on earth…

good friends…

thankies for always being there for me..

special thankies to pingu, gideon, joel, baobei, leeteng jie, zoe jie, song an, marissa and my family…

leaving to Sunway for ACAA this december..program will commence on the 3rd of january..

im gonna need to mug like mad..

some how it still saddens me…

everyone still view changing course as..sort of a sin…

gosh..am i suppose to live a perfect life on this earth? is that what everybody is expecting from me?

i cant..im sorry i cant..i cant care that much bout what others think..i cant continue with something i realise im not capable in doing either…i dont expect others to understand… thats why i try to be patient and try my best not to be affected by whatever comments or reactions you guys give me..

perhaps one day..after im able to move on with life…after ive walk out of the shadow of depression…i will be able look back and use this experience to help others….ya..cant wait for that day to happen.. im sure im not the only one suffocating and struggling…